It seems that the powers that be were not in my favor this week. I threw out my hip the beginning of the week... It's basically a leftover condition due to my three pregnancies. Then I got sick. Like nasty head cold sick. Then my time of the month arrived... then I pulled something in my shoulder and I can't turn my head to the left... Yea, its just been that time when life just throws everything it can at you in only 5 days. But I am HERE!! Why? Because I promised I would be. I have continued to eat well, but I am emotionally exhausted. When Aunt Flow has moved on, I will weigh myself. Hopefully sticking to healthy food choices will make up for my body not cooperating with an active week.
As I sit here waiting for our biggest snow storm to start pummeling us, I am trying to find a way to connect to you. The whole reason I am doing this is so I can share my journey in an honest way. To find a way to say, this week, I failed and my body failed. But I AM STILL DOING THIS. So maybe that's it. Maybe my job is to tell you that despite the mad week I had, I am still just as motivated and excited as I was in my last post. I have had no change of heart. No change in motivation. I am still PUMPED. I feel good about the direction I am going.
I grew up sort of expecting the worst. Things changed at a moments notice and I learned to cope with it. In my parenting life, I got comfortable in the routine and keeping things as simple as possible. And in a way, that made me unprepared for the new challenges being a wife and parent brought.
But now I have 3 kids, my mom passed away almost 3 years ago... the unexpected is sort of a way of life now. I have to learn how to integrate that into my eating and active lifestyle. It's just about a change in thought process and NOT FEELING BAD for having an off week. This week was not normal, and I am ready for a normal week for sure, but it won't always be that way. And accepting that will make the process easier.
Have a happy weekend :-)
Perseverance baby! I was about to give up but suddenly the last few days people have started to notice my weight loss and man does that feel good. Don't get me wrong, it's a struggle daily. Yesterday was probably the worst day I've had at work all year...I drove through jack n the box for dinner and thought of all the greasy nasty shit I wanted soo bad and "chicken fajita pita" still came out of my mouth. Do you have a my fitness pal app?
ReplyDeleteyou ARE still doing this and that's the biggest thing of all! You're awesome, Erin. I can feel your pain, though. i've got two sprained knees (because I suck and won't stay off them) and it is really hard when you're in a good place and your body doesn't seem to know how it's supposed to work. But you're still here, still reaching out, and still moving through your tough times!
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